where to start?
how about sharing an adorable photo of my little princess..

i love the
intensity of her eyes. i feel so
captured when she looks me in the eye.
some days she
frustrates the tar out of all of us! yet
i cannot imagine our lives without her presence.
she keeps it real.
she lets us all know what she is thinking. whether we wanted to or not!
she is
sensitive.
she is a
challenge.i wish she could stay small like this forever so that she could forever curl up like a kitty on my lap...but i
anticipate the day when we hang out when she is older. i
wonder if she will chose the same path that i did when i was a young adult, and
invite God to be a huge part of her life. i pray that she will chose
friends who are a positive influence on her. i hope that she will have lots of
opportunities to grow and become wiser. i wonder what her
talents and special capabilities will be and how she will chose to use them? when i
let my worrying get out of hand i wonder what traits and characteristics she sees in her parents that she will choose to keep? but i do expect that she will have a
fruitful and abundant life! i pray for
wisdom for us as we allow her opportunities to become who she was created to be. as any parent, i want the
best for her. i don't want her to go through life without any trials or obstacles....but i hope they won't be too hard. i know it will not be a benefit for me to shelter her from struggles.
but this day....i am
grateful she is a part of our family and that
her story is just beginning!as much as i dream about her listening to every word or command we say, and following through....i'm
thankful that she is healthy and perfectly a child of her own will!! {i think this AFTER we have been able to keep the floor spill-free for an hour or when she and Aidan are in happy moods while they play}
these are thoughts that play in the back of my mind. don't get me wrong...i do live in the present! fortunately i am not the one in control of her future. yet i still have to daily remind myself of this fact.
and this photo of the sweetest smile on earth...

he is a fiery leader!
he often has thoughtful look on his face. he processes so much more information than i can imagine!
i love that he has a million questions about everything. and he jumps to conclusions about everything! it's a reminder of how little their worlds are, and they try to put their new knowledge into their present framework. wow!
i'm proud that he is thoughtful and caring towards others.
it's frustrating that he can be so stubborn at times!
with all of his talk of robots and building i wonder if he will become an engineer like his dad.
i love how he holds my face between his hands and tells me that i am 'so pretty'.
i do know that he will be a great father one day...he's had a brilliant role model and you can see glimpses of this when he plays with Kiara and other younger kids. i hope that he will also establish a deep faith in God. i also pray that he too will chose friends who are a positive influence on his life and who will also protect him. i hope that he will have common sense and courage and encourage those who need it. i selfishly hope that he will continue to enjoy cooking and baking and will do this for us on a regular basis as he grows! i think that he will be the one who will instigate many discussions that will go deeper than surface conversation. he may be the one who will challenge us when he is an adult to think even deeper.
but this day....
i know with confidence that he desires to be a good friend to others. he is considerate of the needs of those around him. his love is already growing for those who spend time with him. he loves knowledge and thinks of the most amazing questions!
i am very blessed to have two children who are healthy. happy. energetic. joyous. forgiving. loving. caring. polite.
so yes....some days are hard. the kind where you'd sell them to gypsies, if they happened by! after i've cleaned up the fifth cup of spilled milk or third time i've had to change wet underpants or they've hit each other for the tenth time that hour.... the kind of days where you wonder if they will reach their adult years,ever!
it is amazing to me how 95% of the day spent with them is happy and delightful. but that 5% of frustration is enough to drive me over the deep end. why is it so easy to forget the positive and get overwhelmed by the negative? if i ever reach perfection in that area, you will be the first to know!
each day i realize the importance of friends and family. i'm very grateful to my girlfriends who are courageous to keep it real themselves. we can laugh together as we battle the same issues and remind each other that this is life! i'm thankful for family and friends who truly view my children as important and worth investing in. i am very blessed.
so yes, i shared my hopes and dreams for my children. some of them will change and become refined over the years. i see it more as a goal, not a list to complete. and today is more important than tomorrow. today is enough of a struggle, let alone adding the complications of the future!
this day...
i am thankful for the blessings i've had TODAY!
what are you thankful for today?